Escapes, bright lights and laughter

There is a fire escape ladder

outside the window of my new temporary home in downtown los angeles, fashion district.

Right now i am lying in bed and looking out the window, the air is fresh and sweet.

I really needed something to be fresh and sweet.

In one window the ladder reaches up and it meets , in the other window - the moon!

It won't stop staring at me.

I want to run up the ladder and steal a piece of her bright glow and place it in my heart.
But instead, the dark side of the moon is in my heart

and sending tears to my neck.

When i arrived i was filled with laughter and freedom.
Laughter that seemed to be stored up inside me for months.
Now i feel that life is teasing me and i don't like to be teased.

 Today i pondered whether what i thought i wanted is really what i need.
I don't want to be yearning for anything.

 I hope for peace and grounding guidance tomorrow.
Clear thoughts and solid independence.